How bad is Biden

  I hate to be a backseat driver in a nuclear war, but I think it is cruel to make Ukraine think we are backing them militarily and then not do it at all.  And then these economic sanctions during a time of worldwide hardship… is perhaps that choice appealing because you also want to do it to half of your own country as soon as you can?  Is that what we are waiting for? For Trump to say more stupid stuff so you can say that Russia is colluding with all the Americans who know you’re a bad person?  And then you can justify shutting us out from commerce and facebook like you have been wanting to do for your whole “public service” career.  Uh, news for you, people have been doing that to us for thirty years. We’re used to it, we know it will get worse, and we know it’s because of our religion.  That’s why we didn’t vote for you, despite your so-called Catholicism, which is a weak disguise for your obsessive abortion hobby.

Or are we not defending Europe for another reason? Is there some ambivalence because it doesn't fit in well enough to the race war scripts you have been working on with the media? Like it could mess up your narrative of hating white people. Who knows what the reason is, but I continue to be shocked when I read the news and see the broken promise of a simple, swift and severe action. Sanctions is not that. Do you really think Russia will spare the whole world just to get Ukraine? Of course they won't. We should defend them in the beginning and be prepared for anything. If you don't feel up for that then you should not have tried to be the president.

What is Immanent

Well, this is a post for the mad blog, about something international which usually isn’t the topic.  But Russia is invading Ukraine, and Biden warned them and said we would do something “swift and severe” if they went through with it.  But we did not do that, and Biden waffled, and is now imposing sanctions.  Maybe he has something military planned, but to me, trying to ruin all the lives of the citizens during the pandemic instead of attacking the military is a weak and fearful thing to do.  Biden tried to explain that there could be a world war if he stood up to Russia but that is what Russia is using to get away with this invasion.  And it could be the rest of 

Europe, and we had our chance to stand up to Putin's in progress invasion.  But time has passed.  Biden did not sign up to be in a world war. He signed up to be in a movie about Kamala.  Tearing up societies is what democrats do instead of using force to make things right out of a secure place of justice. Just think what a win for peace it could have been if all the military bases destroyed each other. But instead, Biden is going to try to hurt their society like his political people have already hurt ours. And then there’s Trump in the background calling Putin a genius. I guess we will trust God with what happens and what we see happen, but there is another kind of trust where you trust God enough to do what you are supposed to.  And I don’t think that is what people have done enough in our government and country. Now we will see the fruit of universities teaching for thirty years that there is not really a right and wrong, except to protest the people who think there is, and who most offensively actually say so.

The Degeneration Generation

I don’t really think we need another mad blog post right now but I have something to say about my generation, which was hastily called Generation X as soon as Pearl Jam was popular.  Hardees commercials featured a guy talking like he was on drugs, and for the rest of our lives we would be referred to as slackers.  But really we are the 80s children.  And a lot of good stuff has happened because of us, including the surge of facebook and social media, which let a lot of people be creative after being shut out of the careers that fed us kelloggs and star wars when we were kids.  Some cool education and civil rights advancement has also happened with our generation as the core base.  I think millennials will live up to their name, too, but really this whole time period is obviously special. It could be that everyone alive now will get credit for starring in the turn of the millennium.  It hasn’t happened since the year one thousand, and before that was when Christ’s communities became famous. I am fine with being one of the people who had a nervous breakdown, and I hope everyone can clue into the work and support still needed for people with disabilities of all kinds. Some groups are already talking about the Olmstead act, supposedly to protect mentally ill people from being locked up. But really what is going to be needed is good housing and programs that care about all the epidemics, possibly inevitable from the problems that have shattered so many lives in these times. It is not too late to be caught helping people instead of faking activism just to be cool and tearing up the work that still can save more lives than have even lived yet.

tracing back the failure

"if you come to our side, we'll boost your posts"

that's a no, witches.

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believe or die

You can’t have a vocation, but you can have a provocation.

Hi everyone, would you like to read these fun riddles for a mental health group I am in? 

A man pushes his car to a hotel and tells the owner he’s bankrupt. Why?

Answer: He’s playing Monopoly.

What is special about these words: job, polish, herb?

Answer: They are pronounced differently when the first letter is capitalized.

I live at a psychiatric complex in AOC’s district in the Bronx.  But that is not good enough. These people want money and power, and don’t think they won’t turn on you too.  Are my recent posts bad for my career?  Which of my five lost careers would that be?  I guess the cashiering career, but our neighborhood Stop and Shop is closing in April anyway. I could not have been more willing to work with people, and that turns out to be the problem all along.

white and wrong

 Well everyone, some of my normal blog that is supposed to be friendly has taken on some mad blog qualities. But I will still try to add to these blogs like normal.  This is just a short post on a deep subject, which has to do with racial repair and justice.  And I just want to say that people can do really well by just going pro-black, but not so well when it becomes anti-white.  There are geniuses all around who have studied these matters and lived lives with all of these things on their minds for years.  I am not really like that but have cared a lot for a long time and in recent years have been navigating social work school communities and life with immigrants and people of different races in New York City.  And there is a lot of strife.  I have a habit of believing almost anything anyone says, and giving people the benefit of the doubt to a fault.  And I will say finally that in fact it is a fault, and I have to call things like I see it, which is to say that some of the racism problems in New York include racism towards white people.  It is pretty bad here and that is all I will say.  I don’t feel like going into the other sub-issues and arguments, such as when people think that it is now white people’s “turn” to be oppressed.  I have really considered things like that but have found much more peace of mind and justice by intending to treat everyone as well as I can, making repairs for former losses by advancing justice and reparitions for black people and other groups, but maintaining an anti- racist view without targeting certain identities as enemies.  It just doesn’t need to be complicated in some ways, and I don’t support the abuse that has been happening in the name of fake justice. It doesn’t help anyone and actually damages causes for improving lives of many black people who haven’t had the same support as others. That’s all.  It is an interesting topic and possibly where the most important history and philosophy is to be studied these days.  But some of it isn’t as complicated as expensive schools want to suggest, and their offensive and obvious racism will be seen for what it is.

Pre exodus to other social media sites

Well, Facebook censored me overtly this week but it was inevitable after several years of being squelched deliberately by controlling algorithms. My posts could not be more innocent and if a blog like this isn’t good enough then I am not the one with the problem. I will not be begging Facebook to let me talk to my friends by posting videos of myself looking like a stupid desperate white person. facebook would be nothing without people like me and they will be nothing again without people like me. Oh, was I supposed to say “people who look like me?” eventually they will probably script everything using our identities anyway won’t they. So I don’t need to be there. What meta verse are you living in? No longer the same one as me.

fund-a-mental institution

 Here is another mad blog post, everyone, that seems like it could go on my theology blog.  But it is not a theology post. The problem seems theological but is actually a rude attitude problem.  And that is simply that some liberals seem determined to find a place for buddhism and even atheism within their Christian theology, but can’t reconcile basic fundamentalism with their own Christian faith.   I feel sorry for those people, and it is nothing but immature hatred.  People want to think they are better than everyone who just accepted what God told them with the simple faith prescribed in the Bible, so they go out of their way to welcome soul killing idols and principalities to their churches but can’t be nice to a Baptist on facebook. It is like that camel and gnat verse in the Bible, except having to do with thought instead of location. There is more to say, and I am sure God is doing something creative and using everyone’s offering in a good way. But somewhere there is some kind of fear or honesty problem if you have to disown half the church in order to relate with newcomers.  And perhaps are these people not really newcomers but very determined, educated persecutors, crafty and worldly enough to trick weak people into denying the “fundamentals.”

When They Decide To Charge

 Well, I just got notice that google email is going to require two step verification with my phone when I log into my account.  There was no opt in choice.  I will go ahead and say that I think they are preparing to shut out some email users for political reasons and shut down the country if they deem that necessary.  I think facebook has already leveraged their algorithms to persecute some people, and probably all of tech is looking forward to a demonstration of their power as they incapacitate innocent workers and citizens who simply didn’t buy into some of the politics and racism that has been gaining momentum in some but sorry, not all, communities.  That is just a hunch, and I don’t think I need to be the one to wonder out loud if there are more racial motivations than we know about.  Like who is behind the algorithms, and is it not just race but other countries ready to pounce.  It will all happen soon enough, and my contribution to life and people has already been rejected in full, so I expect the worldly power sharks to win their temporary battle. The media seems determined to do their part with their narrative assaults, but some of us know that eventually the truth wins. Recent reminders of death also are a clue that within years, and days, and moments for some people, we will be in a new place subject to other, better authority, and the lies and racist power plays will no longer be tolerated.  Some people will face the tragedy of their choice to not educate their children about religious truth and the salvation that evangelicals were persecuted for caring about, and while I do believe God’s mercy expands well beyond our earthly expectations, I also trust in full that the arrogant disrespect and deliberate oppression and greed from rich political networks will be destroyed as swiftly as people should have trusted God when people started sharing their faith more in the 90s.  Facebook was fun while it lasted, and it is hard to imagine life without email now, but many people are hurtling towards an eternity without love and hope, so let those of us who know to trust in someone other than the weak projections of half loyal politics be thankful for God and the faith that he has given us, which is sure to help us endure or accept the losses that people are planning for those who don’t worship human hypocrits.

Unlabeled Fake Sugar. That is where I draw the line.

I guess people don’t think I should be devastated by this, but I am. It is something I knew could be a problem but didn’t expect so soon, and that is for sucralose to show up in regular foods without a warning label on the front of the package. It has been happening for a while, but recently made its way into foods in a more deceptive way than usual.  I was sad to taste it in the Pillsbury corn bread rolls I baked, and sure enough, right there in tiny little writing in the ingredients, there it was.  And then what I most didn’t expect is to buy a little gourmet cheesecake in a fancy grocery store and recognize the taste when I had a small slice.  Then the next morning, still bothered by the bad experience, I see that there is not even any sugar listed and it is all sucralose. So now I have to check all the ingredients before buying any food. And I am going to waste the offensive cheesecake.  It will not go to my neighbors.  It is a tragedy and just another sign of the dishonesty and fake good deeds that have harmed our country.  People have their way for now, but probably when they try to take everyone’s guns will be when the charade comes to an end and the good people move on from all the harassing destructive activism against all of us, every day, for many years about everything we do and have ever done. We are tired of y'all's self righteous hypocrisy, which is unironically just like the fake sugar that will not go undetected and undespised.

A nice day for a mad blog post

 The reason liberals don't have guns is because they know they're wrong.  They also would rather just make people feel bad than to have actual justice. Currently some social work people are forcing me to go through gay rites of passage, or should I say "gay rights of passage," to get through my gender problem. No one in any community will accept any work or participation from me until I start a stonewall riot or prove I'm Ellen Degeneres. I literally will have to write a sit-com about a bookstore even though I actually worked in a bookstore for twelve years and then I need to lose the sitcom in order to be treated with any amount of dignity from any group or organization here in New York.  Funnily, I think this includes the evangelical churches in the South, as well, who supposedly reject gay choices in general. But I know from my mom's lifelong control of me and her own resulting heartbreak, that everyone secretly wants gay people to be gay.  For the people who pretend not to believe in it, it helps them have people to appropriate, to include despite themselves, or cut off as their profession of faith that secular society outlawed a long time ago in their own disguised ways. But I have consistently been myself and I am a loving person and good at love, even though people judge any kind of monk as being some kind of secret abuser dispatched from the Catholic church. Well the Catholic church was a convenient decoy to blame for what is absolute mass societal sexual abuse which has left almost no one unoffended or unharmed in our disgusting culture that was ruined by too much pornography a long time ago.   This abuse is not totally unrelated to all the closet politics, no matter what anyone says, or no matter how much people try to make having AIDS or good fashion the highest virtue. Some of us chose the discipline of waiting until it was safe to have a person, which for me turns out to either be never, or whenever the social work people who have my life in their hands can confirm that I act out every stage of the "coming out" process required by their gay rights cotillion.  Gay scrogging is the religion of New York, and people couldn't help but follow their pride all the way to total self worship where anyone who wants to contribute to any part of society has to first develop a taste for San Francisco bath houses and naked drag queens on parade floats.  I guess for women it is different, but I would not know, because I have done what I am supposed to, only for people to demand that I throw it all away as part of their continued political campaigns, not to save confused middle schoolers, but to try to keep milking the 80s for their own lost virtue that will probably never be found. So I guess the finale to all these years of suffering is that everyone already knows what is true.  The evangelicals know that gay is okay, and they always have, and the fagtards know that they should have followed Jesus Christ.  Everything else was just a total waste of time except for people to get some air-time with the power-hungry media, who thankfully will probably not be around any more once we're all in heaven.

20 years of liberal jihad

Today is Sept 11 and no one has forgotten and we haven’t forgotten the 20 years of media harassment that followed. People want the insurrection to be a matching bookend to the glory and heroism of that day but it simply isn’t and instead was a mess and a sham and the culmination of deliberate division that has ruined our country.

 

Return of the Mad Blog

 Well everyone, I am restarting my blog after a break to manage behavior problems. So I am back to my normal topics instead of complaining about people being mean to me personally for political reasons.  So today I have two quick topics: first, just to say that I think Apple computers has made its charging ports wear out faster as a power play and as a way to make more money from replacement devices.  It could not be more obvious and my first iPhone lasted four times as long as any of my subsequent replacements.  Then the second issue is that some of the drug stores lock up the brand name over the counter medicine and then drag their feet for customer service so people end up buying the store brand. That is some nasty cheating and the fact that we have no government to intervene with anything like that in our society is a tragedy and a dangerous reality that probably signals the end of safe living for most of us. But this isn't a post about terrorism, domestic or otherwise, and we certainly don't need to be attacked by the Taliban for our own country to be ruined. We already have the New York Times for that. Anyway I guess there is going to be a war in the US soon. People can call it a civil war but I think there will be a lot of "immigrants" helping on one side, won't there be. That is enough for now. This blog got ignored as part of the silence people pretended to complain about. The newsflash that you won't have access to is that a lot of you aren't going to heaven. Bye! I am not Lot's wife. I won't miss anyone.

My 2 cents on government spending

 A post today is simple which is that I agree it is a good time for reparitions. People could think that the economic losses should cause people to wait, but it is all the more reason and all the more appropriate for people to give from their poverty when they can.  That is what black people were forced to do for generations, to find resources from nowhere and live anyway without basic needs. So it is just the right priority during Covid recovery. We should tax ourselves voluntarily and as a country and as local communities.  Many people are already doing the work. I expect to do most of my part during purgatory and think it will be good. I do not plan to pay back the suffering as a punishment but instead will take Christ's offer of all you can eat forgiveness while I learn to cook all you can eat restaurant food. I am also going to live at the mall for a while and run a surprise store with things that can only be sold in purgatory. That is all for today and now I will try to work on imaginary mice novels. I owe a 40 dollar pledge to holocaust survivors but will probably still also buy cupcakes for myself on credit.

Using Your Noodle

 Well everyone, the secret messages seem to be saying to do a post about racism against Asians and I will gladly do that because I think it is a neglected topic.  But I think at this point the main thing I will say is just to point out a simple fact about Covid, which many people, including the stale cheeto, wanted to blame China for. Covid is SARS, and if anyone recalls, SARS has been happening for about fifteen years.  Maybe a little more, and we all used to see people with their masks on in other countries on TV.  I think I remember seeing mostly Japanese people with masks.  That was a long time ago.  So I would say that is a virus that has been contained with extreme success and consideration. And I personally am grateful to face the virus with luxuries of Zoom and facebook and occasional instacart, and to have already gone through some good years where the economy was not shut down and I was able to travel for school.  As obvious as God's care is in that, I will not hesitate to also show some gratitude to all the people in other countries who did the opposite of the biological warfare they were accused of.  And I find it even ruder that people actually refused to discuss biological warfare anyway and went straight for the racism.  Calling it "China virus" without deploying any armies or protection in a war. So it wasn't about biological warfare anyway and if it was, people were too cowardly to discuss it. How terrible, and war is actually something that should be legitimately prepared for anyway with extreme care for our diverse population where anyone could seem like an enemy under some conditions.  And I go further with it than most and disagree with anyone who thinks that some privileged people somehow maintain their prosperity and safety with no attack. That view disgusts me and I don't see how anyone won't acknowledge the erosion and cultural assaults that are part of everyone's lives as we try to deal with overwhelming healthcare burdens, shark tech power hungry control freaks, unavoidable inappropriate media being force fed to everyone's kids, rates of autism with no residential or care provisions anywhere in sight despite multiple multiple billionaires, a food supply that can't be trusted and is replaced or even destroyed with no replacement by greedy copycats who proudly hawk their aggressive harvest from white flight to Portland and Seattle which continues to post a disgusting symbolic green logo over the only thing that helped us get through any of it besides our own supernatural strength that some people didn't have because the expensive schools found it to seem more intellectual to teach everyone that nothing's true. Who do people want to be the victims? Who do people want to be the good guys? Sometimes solutions are more obvious than people realize, and the route to being a good person is surprisingly instant if that was what people really wanted.

intellectual property law frontiers

 Ok everyone I want to introduce a new copyright concept called "common law public domain," where images might not be officially copyright free but they should be.  That is how I drew this aquarium picture: 

I am sorry I wasted the syrup that I bought from the Amish on Amazon.

Ok everyone I know that I have suggested solutions before that have to do with varying funds so that opposing political parties could pay for only what they believe in with clear consciences.  But I thought of an idea this morning rather suddenly that I think could be a more obvious long overdue solution to all of it.  And what I think could solve everything is if America just sent the whole bill for abortion costs directly to the Amish. They could absorb the disrespect intended for all religious people, much like Christ on the cross. It would be a powerful witness of God's forgiveness, while also satiating the murderous forces who try to abuse all of us in more sneaky ways.  We could defeat them by just skipping to the ending, acknowledging the real goals, and concentrating all the meaning in a simplified form. And it is simple: people who care about doing what they are supposed to should take the punishment for everyone else. I mean just say it. There is no need for thousand page insurance laws and corrupt government gridlocks to disguise it all.  People have not been able to convince anyone that babies are innocent or not innocent. But we know the Amish are, so let's get them involved a little more.

now things can go back to normal

Finally, some "peace" and calm again.  No more yucky photos of that bad person on the news every day and the headlines that make us feel like racism is going to win if we try to keep a job and pay our bills. Suddenly things seem so sane again, and why is that? Is it because a mad man is not in charge and the so called fanatics he represents, or because the people tearing up our country got their way and are now allowed to tear it up from above and not below?  Fascism or socialism, what a great choice for a country that used to try for liberty and justice. I actually do feel some relief and am especially happy about Kamala probably being a good leader, but I also don't plan to pretend I don't see a dynamic where people haven't caused on purpose half the strife they pretend to save everyone from.  It's funnily not even just metaphorically similar to criminal behavior where someone has an actual gun to your head and promises not to hurt you if you just hand over the cash. Except it's more like, "we promise not to hurt you any more," which means something bad has already happened. Well that is interestingly similar to their narrative, hard to escape, but possible if you are willing to lose your career or participation in main social venues. I myself think there is a conspiracy, and knew not to vote for Trump, but also can tell when I am watching a skit set up for some entertainment purpose where people weren't satisfied with the corruption of hollywood and want to turn our whole reality into a nasty violent movie.  I ended up with a pretty good role as a food volunteer, more exciting than just being an "extra," but sadly automatically still a racist villain because my ancestors believed in Jesus Christ. My life also comes with a debt that matches what other people got as their salary, but of course it is just a blessing to participate at all. Are the Oscars still a source of honor? To me it would seem by now that any of the winners would have to walk across the stage hiding their face in shame, but maybe that turns out to be part of the movie now too. A very clever ironic twist, and possibly a good sign that everyone will eventually get exactly what they vote for.

Channeling Self Harm

Well everyone, I hope you all are having a good night. I need to take my psychiatric medicine and try not to have another day where I scream at everyone in my neighborhood to stop torturing me. I have made good progress in life goals, which used to involve writing and publishing, but then just writing, and now just experiencing the humiliation of Christ and God's jealousy and rage from the Old Testament. There is oddly one more thing that I have figured out, which is a related goal to stay alive until the very end and not commit suicide.  That is something I did not notice about Christ on the cross, not automatically as a suicide theme but that he was alive while dying in an unusual way.  So I will try to do the same. Abandoning my more absurd and grandiose ambitions to not be abused by my entire society seems like a good plan for now and definitely a type of spiritual progress.  It still might be a culminating problem, though, for people who will be found hitting themselves in the corner when my books are finally read in heaven.  Probably already there are already creatures and people in other realms reading about everything we do here and who possibly have hologram machines that create physical replications of us that they can slap when anyone does something stupid. It could also be God's plan for me to fail in many life layers at a time, because he knew I was going to tell evangelicals that their communion might as well be fetal blood after their disregard for people's health care needs, and that I would also tell the democrats that their fetal blood might as well be fetal blood. Speaking of blood, I am thinking about having my gallbladder surgery without the pain medication or anesthesia, just as practice for the war. 

 

²³ And you, Capernaum, will you be lifted to the heavens? No, you will go down to Hades. For if the miracles that were performed in you had been performed in Sodom, it would have remained to this day. ²⁴ But I tell you that it will be more bearable for Sodom on the day of judgment than for you.”

Violence is Violence

Well that was quite an orange fire that raged for four years, put out by a mostly friendly blue ocean wave, but I think that as the steam hisses and people trudge through the charred wasteland to determine what can be salvaged, something that will turn out to be much less flammable than expected is evangelical Christianity. During recent days, some people in surprise occurrences of political integration have started testing christian claims of evangelical identity, looking for whether people actually share their faith or just found themselves as part of a popular and maybe comfortable social club that seemed immune to some of the suffering felt by oppressed and alienated groups. But that is where I and others will probably have to draw certain lines with how patient to be. Surprising to some, these lines may not be the bad lines of gerry mandering in voting districts, pipelines through indigenous territory, or even Wal-Mart lines that were always too long on purpose. But they will be confrontational and supernaturally unchallengeable boundaries where our persecutors are faced with our unanimous outrage at their own hypocrisy of silencing us and then calling us silent. People love the MLK quote about the appalling silence of good people, a little too much, in fact, and not coincidentally enjoy even more the sport of comparing faithful Christian patience to the horrific silence of the Holocaust, famously brought to attention by Elie Weisel and others since then. People who question complicity in these matters usually have the best of intentions, which is to re-enlist the goodness of those they think they should have already been able to count on for defense against evil assaults on entire populations. But it is their own slouching when people demand the very moral compromises at the root of the problems themselves from people who do plenty of what they are supposed to and know it. What do people say they wanted from us. The criticism was of a lack of campaigning. And yet we were already muted for that very reason: the fact that we actually believed that people needed to know something and went to the trouble of being associated in any way with the message. So either people really believe we are wrong, and are about to be surprised sooner than anyone realizes when God comes through for us all, or there could be a second category of people who were secretly us and would not admit it. And in that case, I will say to those people this new famous quote: "when you point a finger, you have three more pointing back at you, plus my two middle fingers now too."

idea for facebook

 ok everyone i have an idea for facebook which is what if there was an announcement feature where people could post to most of their friends without depending on likes for more people to see some posts. This would help I think maintain some true friend factors instead of making the mix with media and ads turn all social communication into market driven systems that reward certain content instead of any or all actual things people want to share. It wouldn't have to be all of it, like old facebook, but it could be a feature rolled out as a schedule of days or a random lottery stock or a set amount based on friends or followers, or a ratio according to posts. That is an idea that I think could help restore some of facebook's old appeal that has been lost. It is definitely a challenge, especially with some facebookers using it for very competitive purposes, but there probably is a way to help most everyone benefit from it somehow and preserve the relationships that have actually lost a lot of the "organic" nature even when the posts aren't ads that can go to people's friends more easily than their own posts. I say this as someone who has run ads and I think obviously facebook is good for commerce. But there is a way that people are helping themselves to people's social lives not just without any compensation offered but at the expense of people not even having full access to their own friends when they want to communicate in the way that was set up when most people started using facebook and then depending on it almost as a utility. I think it could still work on the basis of consideration and not necessarily profit contracts.

One more thought is that if the sharing based on likes can be based on formulas and algorithms then it would not be that different to distribute "coupons" or "announcement quotas" enabling "all access friend shares" based on some other combination of factors that reasonable people would be likely to accept if it really corresponded to their facebook habits.

Shark Attack

 Well everyone, I got a notice today from Barnes and Noble saying that their customers’ info had been compromised, and everyone’s purchase and transaction records have been leaked. I always had thought that was just a risk with the membership program but apparently Barnes and Noble thinks it is their business to keep track of everything that people buy but not be responsible if it is made public. My purchase history with them is pretty innocent, but I think that this is a reminder of how they leverage power with their cashiers and to try to stay in charge of community decency standards wherever their stores are.  I think they are able to achieve a blackmail effect on their employees if anyone ever decides to stand up against them for any reason. They might think they can dirty all of our personal records, but their brand is the dirt, and even being an employee or a customer has an effect of instant confession at worst, and possibly an automatic exposure of their community assault strategy at even more worst. So I could say I am worried about people coming after me because of my name on receipts, but all that will come to light is how nice some of their employees and customers were, and how patient, to then be treated with nothing less than absolute sexual abuse meant to ruin our lives.

Trending

 Well everyone, I am not going to make the most of this post, but I should go ahead and at least mention the topic.  At volunteer work a couple of years ago, I was sorting coats at a coat drive and made a comment about how I always thought it was messed up how some people would just announce what colors would be cool for that season, like when people say, red and gold is what is going to be popular this year, or “it is time for everyone to eat avocado toast.” I have just always thought, who do those people think they are?  But marketing is good sometimes, too, and when I said it this lady meanly said, “that is their job.”  And it was like she knew I was on disability at the time, and she was implying that at least those people are not lazy bums riding the system like me.  Well I must say that is a pretty nasty insult, and the idea behind it is that maybe because I have an illness or injury that keeps me from being able to work for a while, then I am automatically a worse person than anyone making any money at all, whether they are a contact tracer or a TSA person, or maybe even a prostitute, which to me isn't necessarily as bad as just an ordinary bad boss of some kind. But anyway, it is like I am automatically a tax collector by being on ssdi...okay… I see.. it is from taxes.  I am a tax collector.  Okay I get it everyone, thanks a lot for the great Sunday school lesson.  To me that elevates you all to the highest of clergy even if you are one of the marketing people choosing what colors for people to like or deciding that it is time for society to have tax funded abortions and video ads in the subway depicting pre-teens in their underwear.

The Wages of Unfair Wages

Well everyone, in one of my other writings I said something that I think made it sound like I don’t understand something that I actually do have a concept of, and it has to do with what is the opposite of slavery.  And I just want to say in this quick blog post that a lot of education about slavery always compares it to freedom, like freedom is the main thing to be gained instead.  But I want to say that I think wages might be the main thing, or an additional thing, and that some kinds of freedom come from having correct wages.  We have problems like this now in our country, and people think it is okay, because they see freedom as the main thing in question, which ends up focusing more on the freedom to make people work without paying them enough.  But wages might be the main thing, and the work itself is also a thing.  Abolitionists who made slavery go away a long time ago didn’t always offer other work opportunities, so a lot of poverty and suffering continued from American slavery while many people congratulated themselves and have felt innocent of certain atrocities. But work, wages, and freedom are all part of the justice picture, and people should consider this when they try to solve problems or assess how dependent they have become on other people’s mistreatment. It’s a lot to manage, and it is part of the reason why people should give all their effort to be a good person and do what is right.  And not to make everything theological, but a related topic would have to do with something like tithing ten percent and thinking that excuses you from offering your whole life to the service of God and others. A lot of people will find that to give an honest ten percent, you kind of do have to give your whole life. And so many people have thought all of that is not worth their time. But probably almost everyone would be surprised at how much the other problems of percentages can be traced back to it.

Fighting the System When You Are The System

This topic is very belated, but everyone knows what I am talking about. I thought of a name for it, which I would say is “policy-mongering.” It is when the lawmakers fight each other through the legislation process.  And I think that it has been so much a problem that people should do what they always should have done and make it be against the rules.  Not necessarily a crime, but just against the rules so you lose your job as a senator if you can’t work in a straightforward process instead of using every aspect of the congressional system to fight “the other side” as a representative.  The fact is, in that context, there is not supposed to be another side to that extreme, even with all the history of things like filibustering.  Well filibustering also was a waste of time, and disrespectful, and people should not keep their jobs if they can’t see their work as a job instead of a battle. There is something cowardly about blocking the other politicians at every step of government if what they really want is a war, though that doesn’t necessarily mean that duels are the answer. Both sides have done it consistently, which almost makes it a treaty or agreement of some sort, and that is actually part of the problem.  That is how it becomes a charade and sham while a whole country waits for justice. The right solutions would benefit everyone, and though the divided country and people who are not at peace with each other makes government a difficult challenge that is all too easy for someone like me to sit back and criticize, it is too much of a lie for people to say they are there to govern when what they are really doing is a much lower level role as a soldier taking orders from voters they are try to please in order to keep salaries and insurance that so suspiciously don’t match the wages of the people who can no longer afford places to live.

When to Sort Things Out

People seem pretty mad about riots and looting that have happened in recent months, but that is where I see some of the people who are actually honestly fighting problems instead of doing weird power-play psychological lashes like what a lot of politicians, media, and other bad people do. It kind of matches how people always get in trouble for assault but other life-ruining strategies that happen all the time in this country are often tolerated and sometimes even legal.  But I want to say that as people report on the Breonna Taylor murder, it seems that not everyone thinks it is important that there actually was a drug bust, and that probably her good life and herself as a good person had been turned into kind of a human shield by drug traffickers.  I think there is a range of how bad drug dealers can be, but this sounded like pretty serious drug trade to me, and it continues to confuse me that people so much want to build a case against all cops but ignore the very bad abuse of millions of people, especially young people, from trafficking and drug attacks. A lot of it creates bad situations like what happened to Breonna Taylor, and I don’t know for how much longer cops and soldiers need to be sifting through the complications of innocent people being mixed in before it just becomes a war. And if it does, then people who decided to flood the jails as part of that effort will have to face the consequences of their decision.  For a lot of communities, it still seems worth the effort to try to intervene in trafficking, especially because of the international threats and the child abuse involved. And I can’t say that I am not someone who thinks it does damage people’s credibility when they want to talk about mass incarceration without acknowledging mass crime. I pretty consistently side with the black people and see a lot of racism, and I side with the poor and see abuse and lack of justice, but when I read the news, I see lies. You don’t know how bad you have to be to lose my support, and many people have.  I am not scared to become Amish, to go off the grid, and just wait until judgement day when God tosses millions into the yawning chasm of fire that is probably already glowing a little brighter from recent days.

Yet another all-encompassing rant because of one slight

   Well everyone, I just ate some meatloaf that was in a cool aluminum container and I decided to put it on a plate first and saw that it seemed to not be cooked yet after all.  But I think really it was half cooked and had a note to heat it for 20 minutes in the oven.  Well that is weird because it was in the prepared food section at the grocery store. So I put it in the oven and it was still pink so I sautéed it.  Hopefully it is cooked enough now.  It makes me have thoughts of a ruined society, though, because I feel like there was in fact a time where you would not have to be so careful at a grocery store. There wouldn’t be a risk of accidentally eating raw meat. It happened to me with some crab cakes once, and I have also noticed refrigerated drink displays having alcoholic bottled drinks mixed in with other cryptically labeled teas and sodas.  And what is Kombucha?  I don’t really know.  But what seems clear is that a lot of people in our culture don’t care about anything but money, and they especially don’t care about kids and young people. They just don’t.  And this is how systems form that become harder to intervene in as people start to get cheated or abused by the hundreds of millions. 
     Maybe I should try to stay positive, because great things have happened in our country, and I can see how God blessed my generation from the 80s and made our wildest cartoon dreams come true with laptops, cellphones, and the most entertaining internet phenomenon imaginable. I am also a fan of Obama’s great 8 years, the candy aisle at Target, stars like Ellen and Oprah and Zuckerberg, and even delivery options like Amazon.  But you can see people trying to establish their right to run everyone over and not care about things like clean water standards, FDA rules that can mean life and death, and the most basic justice of getting fair wages.  Why do people continue to tear up everything instead of striving for a functioning congress, a police force that saves people instead of killing them, and schools that provide any service needed in a world where there may not have ever been a greater opportunity to share the truest faith and justice possible? To me it does come down to being able to buy food safely and fairly, and to not have to watch an ongoing economic and moral erosion hurting the younger part of America while the still unsatisfied sharks at the top try to take everything from everyone. If you don’t care about keeping your customers from getting worms, then you don’t care about anything that matters.

Recounting

    Well everyone, I am one of the bad whiteys who was a little slow to see how much the police brutality against African Americans was not isolated incidents. I think some legitimate distrust of the media was part of it, but it took me a while to see that of course people should fight back.  When I think of my own experiences with law enforcement, it is so believable that part of the population has it worse than me, and that I did not have it so good myself for a while.  In New York, I feel that cops have helped me stay safe through some years where bad people from my old job followed me and made themselves known.  But in South Carolina where I lived most of my life, even as someone who tried to stay out of trouble, I did have my share of traffic stops that were overwhelmingly a form of guerilla taxation at best, with some levels of violation that help me believe very much that some cops just go straight for the murder.  
     My experiences almost all involved being stopped for speeding in a school zone, and it was always about ten miles over the speed limit because of the changed speed for an hour, and it would happen after all the children had cleared out so no one could notice that it was a speed trap.  It’s not a big deal, and there is a black dentist from Pennsylvania, I think, who has been pulled over by cops more than 500 times in his gold BMW.  But I think in some ways, it is a big deal, because of the dishonesty of it, because of the motivation that is apparent, and because of the use of power to just maintain more power and rob people. One speeding ticket I got was just because I was accelerating and not speeding at all. It was literally just car trouble. The cop was so mean, and the courts make it not worth your while to plead not guilty.  They reduce the ticket as a bribe for you to put up with their false accusations, and if you lose your case after pleading not guilty, then you have to pay the full amount. So people just go along with the lies because of their lives that are too busy to deal with that kind of garbage. Another cop once pulled me over for an expired tag and when I showed him the actual legal notice vouching for me for one more month, he ignored it and gave me the ticket anyway.  I missed the court appearance to be hospitalized for a manic episode, and my parents tried to get it taken care of for me.  It was total garbage. 
      There is also a little town between the two towns of Greenville and Spartanburg, and this huge 6 lane highway that cuts through, with some businesses along the way, so it is a nice way to travel safely. But in the middle of it where that small town is, the speed limit suddenly cuts down to 40 miles an hour.  It is a speed trap to pay for people’s worthless existence.  What a bunch of losers. Build a factory or something. Don’t involve people in the justice system for no reason just because you need a source of income. 
     Obviously these stories don’t compare to people being shot after stealing cigars, but that is my point.  I think one in ten of my ticket experiences was legitimate.  They took everything they could, which wasn’t that much because of my innocence, yes, but also because of my middle class white background, though I definitely dropped down from that because of my own experiences with suffering and discrimination. I think there are other society solutions that will help everyone more than “defunding the police,” such as more businesses and jobs that hire fairly and pay fairly, but I also think the arrogant, blatant disregard of human rights represented so consistently by bad cops who are not only not held accountable for any of it, but deliberately enabled by worthless whiteys collecting the cash several levels away, warrants quite an overhaul, or an overthrow, or just a reminder of Judgement Day and Jesus Christ finally setting things right with a machine gun.

The Catholic Reformation

    I went to a presentation once where someone said that the secret to wealth had to do with credit power and buying and selling debt.  I don’t understand all of it, and that kind of stuff has definitely been part of our economy for quite a while, but not to good ends and legitimate prosperity.  There is a tough reality that everyone has to face, which is that people reap what they sow, and it is work that results in results. If people build buildings, there will be buildings, and if they don’t, there won’t be buildings, though God is good and gives people extra blessings all the time. And while people talk about interest rates, and lending practices, and all these factors that do matter, there is another thing in the background of America’s economic struggles to contend with. In addition to slavery legacies still needing reparitions, we have also seen about 40 years of Made in China tags on many if not most of the products consumed here. 
     I do not agree with all the bad people who have lamented that other countries have opportunities and production, even when things like patents got copied. I try to be happy when anyone gets what they deserve. But if people want to be safe from dangerous economic domination, then they need to get to work. Our 16 trillion dollar debt is thankfully pretty diversified, but if people think they are just going to coast on the storage of generational money while a third of the country does not have adequate employment other than possibly some drug trade out of a lazy and inconsiderate resignation to traffickers, then they are going to be very disappointed, and their children are going to be more than disappointed as everyone's enemies overtake and overwhelm them. You can already see enough of it to hopefully just serve as a warning to quickly find productive, honest work that builds power and strength to reject abuse and the worst kinds of slavery.

    Also, while I am at it, thanks for the SSDI, everyone.  I already got chewed up and spit out by the corporations, but eventually will return and try to pay it back, even if it means doing time in purgatory.

Monumental Landmark Decisions

I just want to say that I think whoever ends up sandblasting stone mountain will have fixed one of the most offensive monument problems, and I also want to say that I think it has worked out well to have the monuments so there is something to deface and record the right kind of rebellion. Modern art would always have been better than statues, and that is what a lot of graffiti is, anyway. I go so far as to think Mt Rushmore is also an offense, more against nature and all of humanity than just being an issue of racism.  What could people have possibly been thinking to carve statues into the best mountainsides? The arrogance of it is almost enough of an acknowledgement itself. It could be the more strong protest to leave the monuments up as the symbol of shame for people who let themselves be represented by it all.

Homemade Covid Meme

Well everyone, what do you think about this meme that I made?  I am thinking about learning how to make memes and gifs like some of the most creative people.  But I don’t know if I got this one right. I can see a little case against all three photos in terms of how it comes across. Especially the middle guy, who is one of the people who became a symbol of bad hoarding behavior.  And yet I am not sure that what he did is any different than Target and Wal-Mart, except that he actually has what people need in stock.

political warnings

My loyalties are often conflicted because I have known so many people in different contexts who are obviously doing what they are supposed to. But I have also seen in that same variety of environments various hypocrisies as people gleefully destroy the good work and reputations of those who are clearly helping others with all their strength, or at least most of their strength. Sometimes in those margins of what is left undone, aggressors attack mostly decent people and use that leverage to try to create more damage. It is a sad thing, but I mention it just to say that I think with all the problems in our country and world, as we see parts of our culture lost and destroyed, there will be a lot of martyrdom mixed in that people think they won’t be held accountable for.  It might not be the most classic Christian martyrdom, but it might, and people are already sacrificed and persecuted for all kinds of goodness and just an innocence of basic living and staying human. Any activist who thinks they are going to gain some kind of moral victory from carelessly and lazily opposing anyone with a different belief or background is going to find themselves responsible for losses that they might not have wanted to be guilty of if they had thought through their choices more wisely of how to serve the public in the most powerful way. It could ironically become very simple after all, as people are found out to be starkly either good or bad, no matter what situation they find themselves in as everyone makes their choice of whether to treat people with kindness and justice or blatant, undisguised crime.

maybe Jeff Bezos will save us all from the hoarders

Apparently amazon is overwhelmed with orders and can’t “deliver” on its prime services that people paid for, which no one needs to be a jerk about, because coronoravirus was very unexpected.  But I do think that there is an arrogance and disrespect that I have never seen the likes of in my life when I go to inquire about a pancake mix order that is obviously deliberately delayed as a power play and the only communication option there is is to “chat” with a “bot.”  A hard to find web page with literal artificial intelligence or maybe just an insult to everyone’s intelligence as we realize that quarantined people’s hunger for rice and beans is nothing compared to Amazon’s hunger for money and power.

A virus, an economic collapse, and a government tragedy

Something interesting right now is that in November if we still have a country and a government, I will be voting for either Bernie Sanders or a Libertarian. I think the Libertarian I would vote for is named Jo Jorgensen.  Those are the two extreme opposites but I think that is where the best people are and I will not be voting for Biden or Trump under any circumstances, even to prevent Trump or Biden from winning. I also am watching the tragedy of the coronoravirus bill with terrible sadness as they write big checks to corporations and small checks to people who need groceries. I am saying some people will get 1200 dollars and some people will get 600, and it is all about a week later than what was needed.  As much as equality is a concept misused very commonly to take away what people earn, there can’t be a situation more leveling than this disease outbreak, and for Republicans to deny their real job of treating people fairly and instead try to make themselves the judges and rewarders of supposed work ethic and virtue is a disgrace and at the heart of their continual discrimination. The only thing weirder and sicker is their worship and favor of corporations, who aren’t giving workers their fair share of wages already, so why would we trust them with a bailout that could have gone straight to the people.

National Looters

    There are some realizations happening I think with the coronoravirus crisis where we suddenly see some of the risk that people have put themselves in to serve their fellow humans, to contribute to the economy in humble and faithful ways, and sometimes to simply provide for themselves responsibly. I am talking about grocery store cashiers, and of course the health care people, but especially the grocery store people who have for many years been the lowest paid workers in our country.  You could see glimpses of it during snow days when everyone gets their food and the cashiers drive home on the snowy roads, but really I think it has been more apparent than that, with just the usual amount of discipline and patience it takes to get through several hours or a whole day standing in one place facing the public, which can be collectively impatient to the point of abuse.  Of course some customers are nice, and the grocery store jobs turn out to be the secure jobs as the economy crumbles some, hopefully temporarily.  But we should still not miss this clue that maybe cashiers have always been underpaid and under-appreciated by people who have no excuse, which is mostly companies, but also in a way, all of us as consumers who tolerate it.

    As people get desperate, there could be an additional level of safety risk not just due to the contagion of the virus, but also because of people targeting stores for stealing, hoarding, and other bad mob behavior.  I should not be pessimistic, and I think already military support has been activated to keep people safe, but I think it will be interesting to see what kinds of company sharks continue to chew up their employees and hide their money that could have strengthened our whole society to face any epidemic with total resources and justice for everyone. It makes you think about who are the real looters.  When people come into the stores with baseball bats, it could still be a thin disguise for the real bullies collecting the most cash from all of it, who literally are so far from the scenes that their only link to the stores are their rapidly increasing bank accounts, growing in exact inverse proportion to the health and safety of their employees and stock market slaves.

rescuing koalas stat

     This is just a short post to say that the numbers of koala rescues I am seeing seem a little bit small compared to the stats saying hundreds of millions of animals have died in the fires. The Crocodile Hunter people I think rescued over 90,000 or more, which is amazing, and maybe I have just not seen the news enough for Australia.  But on facebook, I see one koala get temporary water at a time, with headlines saying 480 million or even a billion animals have died. Thankfully, it started raining, but there may need to be prevention measures for the future, supported by the rest of the world.
    An irrigation system could be worth investing in to prevent more problems like the fires that hurt everyone for two years.  Also, I want to point out that a certain American brand of climate activism which is very political and often just scapegoats people who haven't come around to that kind of environmentalism yet is not the exact match for what is probably needed in an emergency like what happened with the wildlife in Australia. There is some kind of heroic mass rescue effort needed that is different than just lobbying polluters and shaming ignorant people.  Fire fighting is part of it, but the scale of animal rescue needed was beyond what has been established yet, and it is probably not too late for people to take action to make those rescues possible in the future.

Power Companies

I am not going to waste my energy trying to be clever about this, and I am sure that many people haven noticed the same things I have with recent tech company power plays.  Gmail has done several advances to have power over everyone’s communication lately, and I am sure others have noticed that sometimes you go to click on an email and all of a sudden the screen shifts down and you have clicked on an ad instead.  I also just now noticed that they are moving old emails up in the list to suggest that you reply.  Maybe that is helpful for people, but it seems a little confusing to me.  Spell check has also gotten more aggressive in recent months, making it hard to confirm your original word choice, and the other day I typed an email where google was literally putting a word in front of me each time I typed something, and “suggesting” actual email content.  It was very distracting and hard to think of what to say. Probably people can turn some of those features off, but it is still a weird controlling thing that reminds me of some of facebook’s tricks like that sometimes.  When I work on my website on Squarespace, I can’t easily log off and have to leave the site and come back to it to finally simply log out.  I believe that is so they can get another click to report for their stats.  There is something weird about this stuff, and controlling in an immature way, and there is also a dishonesty that to me is a terrible and dangerous thing on a scale that the tech resources have.  I am so thankful for all the ways I have benefited from all those awesome things like gmail and facebook, but I think that people should always remember the ways that millions of regular people have contributed and are part of that success. The way facebook always tries to roll out changes and stay ahead of any possible regulation could seem like a good way to function as an alternative source of power and leadership for our country and world, but I think that for everyone to decide that some of these guys are above legal oversight might not be the great system that people think it is. There are benefits to public authority and laws enforced by representatives of people with interests beyond just financial or being self-serving, and with the threat of low wages and trafficking that people face in our society, going ahead and just letting the tech people make their own decisions with no accountability is probably not the cool revolutionary idea that many people seem content to allow.

“Commemorative”

Putting Christina McAuliffe on a coin before Harriet Tubman is on the 20 dollar bill is nothing but a hate crime, and Trump should be the next astronaut for the challenger program.

Revisiting

I might share blog links soon, and I just want to repeat a solution idea I have mentioned before after many years of hoping the best for immigrants. It is similar to raids except I think people should find all the immigrants and print out an ID card for them, granting anyone easy instant citizenship.  And then, because there truly are problems with trafficking and abuse, the other task involves simply enforcing criminal law, which should be stricter against all abusers, rapists, and murderers, including Americans who are ruining lives as much as other bad people. There is a lot I don't know about what is happening all over our crisis-filled country, but I do think that simple concepts of welcoming people and protecting everyone from harmful abusers is in fact possible, as rightful moral things usually are. Also, has anyone thought of inviting Mexico to be part of the United States? It would be a nice gesture, considering everything Mexicans have done for our country.

recent consarns

Obviously I am slowing down with these mad blog posts, but I feel like mentioning two recent bothersome things. One is that I have gotten to a point where I really don't know what news stories are true, and don't have any news source that I trust in more than a partial way. People have been talking about this issue for a long time, but I did for a while feel like I could kind of get a picture of what's going on from skipping around and reading between the lines.  But honestly, now I go to sites and look through the headlines and genuinely don't know if there are any stories that I can believe. It could be paranoia or other mental problems, but I have a feeling that it is more likely that my mental problems are more of a result from wrongs like that and not the cause.

Then the other thing is something I have been meaning to mention for a long time, which is my disappointment that New York subways are not more accessible to disabled people and moms with strollers. I am confused about why a city as important as New York would not provide for people in that way, and honestly I thought that certain laws required that. I think that the Access-a-ride service is a pretty good step (get it, "step," like the hundreds of steps people have to carry strollers up with children in them who could get their face smashed if they are dropped?), but I think the disability van program is not the same as treating everyone with justice and service. And if a place as advanced or as potentially advanced as New York could have been won't do what is right, then I think that a lot of places and maybe the whole world is in a lot of trouble.

Ok I am remembering a third thing, which is just to make sure I say on this blog that I do think Trump is racist, and I also think he has a competence and sanity problem bad enough for immediate impeachment. I have thought so for a long time, even after holding out some very unpopular hope after decisively not voting for him.  The outrageous Harriet Tubman 20 dollar bill reversal was what really made me feel the urgent need to express my horror, but there has been a delay in me sharing my political views, and I am really sorry about all the reasons for that.  I mostly do what I can when I can, and I hope that everyone who has more official responsibility to intervene will succeed in preventing worse atrocities than what has already been happening.