Can you find what's wrong with this receipt?

 Ok, look closely, do you see what it is?  The gift card I "bought" was "not approved," but the charge still says $100.36.  So I paid for an 80 dollar gift card but there is no money on it.  I am waiting a couple of days to see what happens with my account, but I did try to use the gift card later the same day and it sure enough did not work.  But my overdraft protection on my credit line worked and listed the exact charge.  I was buying a gift card with my credit line so I would not get individual overdraft charges for groceries.

This is simply, a crime, and an outrage that their cashiering system can even let something like that go through.  This is actually the second incident like this with this company, and I do think I might get a lawyer this time.  It is too important for people to be able to fairly buy groceries through an honest system.  So I actually would take the trouble to fight this.  Today I called the cops about it because the 80 dollars is gone yet I have no value on the gift card and the store did not correct the problem.  

Would anyone like to call me a Karen about this? To say I should not be mad and they have to protect themselves from scammers?  They are the scammers in this scenario, and if people allow these kinds of transactions to happen then they can expect to be fighting like animals over blocked hills of rice and porridge for the next hundred years until honest people walk the planet again.

Better Christian Nationalism than Anti-Christian Nationalism

Most Christians do know better than to just choose a so-called theocracy, or worse, a hypocrite-ocracy. It is actually a small percentage that think they should force everyone to act like they have the same religion.  However, a lot of people are reacting to what is absolutely a similar foisting of ideological lifestyle aggression onto people who should be free and happy.  I don’t see how anyone can really not see how the democrats have their own morality and self-righteousness warping into a control freak power grab. I don’t know how things will go towards resolving it. I kind of do think it is too late for peaceful renewal of the organically free and loyal society.  But maybe good things will still happen from all the millions of people who know better than how they are represented in the media and government chambers and chamber pots and pot head dens and cells.

What is behind people’s weakness

So I have been doing better blogging with fewer complaint mistakes, but here is a weaker post to just wonder something out loud in case it is a problem.  I noticed that gas prices were low during Trump’s presidency, high during Obama’s presidency, and horribly outrageous during Biden’s presidency.  And I am just wondering if the oil companies are “rigging” that on purpose for political reasons, in a similar way as facebook ruins people’s social lives for political reasons.  Like if it is kind of an industry display of power to get their way.  I do not know.  I truly don’t.  I know there are a lot of factors about energy production that I don’t understand.  But I think profit gouging is something that happens very often without much intervention, and this pattern makes me suspect some things could be on purpose.  I am disgusted with Biden but this type of fighting in both cases, from power hungry oil people and from greasy social media people, is a shameful embarrassment that probably shouldn’t be legally possible.

Compromising on ethics but not on anything else…

Ask yourself, why is it religious liberty and social justice, instead of liberty and justice?  And could the phrase “for all” believably be added to either concept? It is interesting to ponder, and to think that real solutions might satisfy both interests. My hunch is that at this point, we should just go with both things and try to provide work and laws that serve both those causes. This also suggests a philosophical component where too many people have fallen for the idea that our only option is to negotiate with different groups who all have supposedly legitimate but conflicting interests. Maybe that is not how it works.  It could be that until there is true faith that decisions can fairly benefit all people, then no real peace and progress will take place in our country or anywhere else. Can’t everyone now say “I told you so” about at least some things, so people can agree to move on with what surely must be an obvious path forward.

Where is the leadership?

Republicans who bully people like Maxine Waters. I feel sorry for you.  Democrats who aren’t satisfied with people like Susan Collins and Murkowski.  I feel sorry for you.  Black people who don’t stand up for your white friends who aren’t really that racist. Actually, I do kind of get it. Everyone does, and that is why the democra-tards are able to roll through such absurdities of strife and murder before everyone’s eyes. But I still wonder when people will sufficiently question why they have to vote for abortion extremism and legalizing armed robbery to have any minority representation at all? Perhaps the conservatives are the ones with the higher view of those who they seem to vote against, and actually do, unfortunately.

Utilitarianism

So this mad blog post is about something that maybe I don’t need to say.  I think really, people have watched it all happen and anything that I tried to keep up with is now just reality because the bad people won.  But it is an observation about facebook, and I do think it is better for some people to say it than to not say it.  In the past, when a resource everyone relied on so much became an almost or absolute necessity of people’s lives, it would often be instituted as a utility, such as electric and phone companies. Facebook itself morphed and added to its role like that, so some of its expansion is from the company trying to meet needs.  But some of it is most obviously from trying to meet “greeds.” And we don’t have a government that is functional enough to regulate social media, and we also have a public that decided to be patient with something so powerful functioning like a utility but not having accountability.  No one insisted on much regulation, but how have we been repaid for our loyalty and cooperation? By total betrayal that includes many of our actual friends and acquaintances. In a way, what has happened is a valuable demonstration of extreme free market potential, and as a libertarian, I somewhat am a fan of that process.  However, I do see some drawbacks where just like with other parts of our country’s systems, some people end up getting the worst of both worlds- capitalism and government socialism.  In other words, facebook has pretty obviously chosen a political party to support, and has enhanced its users’ efforts to harass and silence the other “side.” And the strategy of harassment and silencing and starvation is conspicuously similar to the culture wars from the past 40 years.  Only now, a social utility which has a public role that also has eaten up people’s actual friendships from both church, school, and work contacts, is actively shutting down not just normal life but the social component of people’s lives.  Would I not complain if I was one of the people boosted?  Maybe I would gloat or tell everyone it’s their problem.  Except the algorithms don’t allow for normal announcements and friendship as they once did, and they do allow for constant ads to funnel money to already billionaires based on my friendship. And soon Zuckerberg will pay the influencers who are mocking people from my religion and, hmmmm… geographical background.  There are already onslaughts of underwear ads if I post something religious.  And the social media up and ups will gladly tell you that is the point.  

I can go on, but people are already aware of this.  Are we going to take it?  How facebook hides its true staff behind insulting publicity mascots featured in meta ads letting us know that Zuckerberg has moved on to other goals? What if the electric company shut off half the power for one side of the political disagreements?  In a way, it seems that facebook is different from that, but in another way, it is much, much worse, because it is our actual church and school contacts, many of which have been glad to harass their friends literally to death. That is all I will say.  No one really has to say it, because it is all recorded. People’s motives are all too apparent. Their delusions of historical heroism, and the finale of safety threats to anyone who merely voted according to their pro life beliefs, much less actual government leaders who attained their role through the democratic process that too many people actually worshipped and idolicized to the point of the clogged process we now have. What will happen to deliver us from this oppression?  Probably a pandemic and war, and then the country breaks up in an immature, bratty admission that maybe it already should have two hundred years ago when aggressives tried their tricks before.

a rather extreme view itself

 Ok everyone, here is another blog post for the mad blog which is more reflective and less mad this time.  And it has to do with political “extremism” often being seen as a key problem or even the key problem on either "side," when really it’s not always a difference in degree and devotion behind the most damaging people. Those who tear up society shouldn’t be automatically seen as just hyper-motivated versions of normal people, or over-involved ideology representatives who somehow got carried away with what would have been a good cause. Truly detrimental views and actions often have a totally different orientation towards some kind of wrong living.  Problem people who political campaigners want to associate with their opponents have a variety of motives and bad belief systems.  This is one of the reasons why it’s not working out for people to reduce everything to a dual political party fight in the first place, which millions have in fact fallen for.  But even those who cast a vote of any kind don’t necessarily subscribe and oppose in the patterns that so many activists and politicians would want to make it seem. So how much more so are the crazy criminals not just some kind of highly concentrated form of legitimate mainstream directions. There is such thing as extremism, there is such thing as going off the deep end, but I am tired of people saying that bad people are just me but worse, or me, but “more so.”  Or me, but more progressed along the exact path I am on, which is doing the best I can like most other people. Do people really want everything to be about politics? To be decided by one check mark on a piece of paper every four years?  The people who want that must not have any other deeds to their name. I feel sorry for them and for everyone who has to live in the same country as them. 

The guns are pointed at the wrong people

 I’m a little late with this and truly sorry about that, but I have some thoughts about how AR -15s are in fact way past what is appropriate for civilian availability and should certainly not be given to people who have already proven themselves as not even being “civil.” But also in terms of what is civil and what is war, there is something else I have to add to the gun debate which is that I think for all the shootings there are at least that many people who should have been shot instead. The death penalty could and should also be part of this discussion of mass shootings, as well as the fact that 30 thousand dollars a year gets spent on facilitating jail for murderers who took innocent lives and don’t deserve to live. That is also part of a picture where disabled people are given a third of minimum wage to live on when instead they should have been included in the work force, which is also widely underpaid. All of these problems are related to valuing and not valuing life, which should generally be protected “to the death.”  Some people like to say, “Who are we to choose who can live” when they pretend to be moral and above the death penalty instead of beneath it.  But actually, for centuries, people have quite often been moral enough to make that call, and they will do so again if and when there is war because of these unresolved problems. The immorality and amorality and cowardice of those who do not stand up to crime is absolutely part of this same problem, and don’t think that is not a major factor in why up to half the country refuses to give up access to what are clearly very dangerous and very modern weapons meant for legitimate military protection.

Media Outlets

 Ok everyone here is another mad blog topic which has to do with publishing.  And that is the transformation of the meaning of “platform” in recent years.  I could be wrong but I think that “platform” used to refer more to a perspective and background of an author, sometimes even including their story communicated in their work itself.  Now, in some circles, the term is used almost interchangeably with “following,” referring to contacts on facebook or twitter, etc.  I agree that some overlap makes sense and is simply a fact, but mostly I think this conflation reflects slight cheating from the publishing industry, who wants it to go unnoticed that the author has to supply their own publicity now, as well as an aggression from other influencers who see their political and social advantage and want to equate the author’s worth and meaning with popularity. 

 

This leap of reference and the expectation that everyone will go along with it and either won’t notice the difference, won’t acknowledge the change, or just never knew until they were taught this new view of things, has implications that I think could go beyond the impact of books and communication, on into philosophical and religious grounding within this culture and others. It’s just a step in a selling-out process, and could be more dangerous than people realize when truth is up for a vote and majority mob rule has the last word. And that itself is the deception, because it’s not even a matter of having the last word, but a claim that the popularity is the word itself.  Go ahead and stretch that interpretation all the way to people thinking they’re God. It’s not far from the tragedy of a whole industry and profession agreeing on that shortcut together. People can say, oh, selling out, like how your books haven’t sold out so you’re complaining. Maybe, but I don’t know who can read them anyway if people are just going to change the definitions of words and exchange prophets for profits.

The Powers that Were

 Well everyone, this is not really a whole blog post but just a sketch for a post. It has to do with powers that be.  And just that I remember as a kid sometimes my dad or someone would point out something interesting about a product, or a store, or the way things were done, and say an explanation like “they do that because of such and such.” They have the label on the side so you won’t get mixed up with whatever.” The railing is like this because such and such.  And a lot of times it would be something logical and protective.  Like plastic bags being labeled for safety. Then, in the late nineties, someone said something like, “at Bilo they pump a bread smell into the air so people will buy more.” And this was different than some kind of strategy to help people. It was about the cash.  And I guess a lot of stuff was always about the cash, but I think that things have gotten even worse now, where it’s not even about the cash. It is about power, also because of cash, but also just for the power.  Products being unsafe, ingredients not being labeled, power plays, cash register lines with not enough cashiers, music that is too loud, music that is inappropriate, credit card devices that threaten refusal to serve, etc.  Honestly I don’t have great examples for any of it.  That is why I say it is not even a whole blog post, much less an article.  But I know I am right.  And a lot of the people who won’t acknowledge this decline (get it, declined, like your credit card when you don’t match a profile) anyway, I am saying a lot of people who are in denial think they are the ones who are going to be at an advantage as people set up these bad systems, but I think everyone is going to suffer.  Even the ones getting the profit will not have the joy of living in a fair society.  It won’t benefit them either in the long run.  It’s just something I noticed, something that almost seems the same and is probably used to criticize some people who suggest that there has been loss as well as gain in recent decades.  But it is a sign for the logical reasons for things to not be in our favor anymore, in this evil “our.”

Whose warning is this

 I had to discontinue my 7 dollar a day ad from facebook. I can’t afford it.  And I got a notice from them saying that I needed to update the ad and change the demographic target.  It was phrased as if I had been racist and made some kind of civil rights violation for having an audience description at all.  And I chose the 18-65 age range but about 80 percent of my ads went to 50-60 year olds, because that is what market facebook found most convenient for themselves, and not what I had explicitly chosen. This is after being censored for another post that was also completely innocent but probably got reported by a liberal social work school alum because I write about religion on my blogs. I feel oppression from Amazon, too, who charges me for my purchases way after I order things, unlike normal, as a power play, and who makes it seem like I can chose the amazon day option to receive more consolidated packages but then deliberately divides the orders to show who’s in charge.  And then divides the total, too, so the charges on my account are unrecognizable.  They are leveraging their system so they answer to no one, and they are preparing to shut out some American citizens from having access to basic goods and services.  People who don’t register as democrats will be treated as nazis, similar to the misinformation strategy Russia is using in their horrible war.  To watch the Pagans chase after things pagans chase after is educational, but also sad.  Even with a low, oppressed status, I feel a genuine pity because I know that within even a blink these people will be once again nothing in God’s sight, subject to the true systems of justice from heaven. And some will be broken hearted but eventually saved, and others will go to hell right before our eyes, with no one disagreeing. 

Citizenship, Allegiance, Martial Law

We will probably need soldiers on our streets during this war.  It might have been a good idea already, but Americans have a knee-jerk opposition to “martial law.” It is good to be wary of it, but we can probably expect some attacks to our own people’s safety, and our culture already has a disturbing problem with rape and child abuse.

So what is another component that needs to be okay in these conditions?  I would say citizenship, or a “common law citizenship” is a priority, and that is another concept that people have been slow to understand and act on.  Allegiance is the main component for citizenship.  And if that is secure, you can be less controlling about things like language and history knowledge. This should already have been understood and resolved. As ignorant and racist as republicans have been, the democrats also failed to offer immigrants fast citizenship.  They offered them harbor, at great risk to our whole nation, and I have to say I think that wasn’t that bad of a thing since we knew it was mostly hungry Mexicans.  But they also did not succeed in providing citizenship after twelve years to get it done. Whose stubbornness was the problem? A lot of peoples. And now a thousand immigrants a day cross the border in war time.

 

Citizenship should be easy to attain, for all refugees, and violence and crime should be met with swift and final law enforcement.  It’s not a time to be soft on murder and rape.  We should require allegiance, let people be citizens, and kill the rapists and murderers.  If people attack soldiers on the street, they are not on our side.  Probably the jails will need to be emptied of potheads.  Is this the glorious drug war victory you guys were looking for? I hope you are happy with your choice for the decay that weakens us as a nation during world war.

 

Allegiance and safety.  Think about it.  And is it peace that is the goal, or defeat of the bad guys?  I think it is defeat that is needed. That is something that people used to not have to be taught by gruesome history. But God provides for his people in whatever way he feels is right.  And many will learn from these times. 

Revisiting

 I have already posted a post like this but I just want to revisit the topic of rent and apartments and poverty.  In New York there is some craziness with people refusing to leave apartments after they can't pay rent, and organizations that defend "tenants rights," etc. And I just want to say that I think our society as a whole could really benefit from considering using more of a rent-to-own condo system instead of apartment rental where you pour money into property management buildings and never actually own your space.  Often there are supposedly smart people who go into debt to own stuff like houses and apartments and then rent it out to collect more cash, so it is really a matter of a signature about who gets the money.  But that "ha ha, suckers" factor is a sign that there could be some injustice that people will eventually answer for. I am not a socialist and I actually think more justice in this system could prevent the socialism that is at risk because of the poverty.  I won't say that much more about it, except that condo payment systems do exist and are wiser for all parties involved.  Some parables in the bible are interesting to look at too, where Jesus is using the absurd violations of landlords, rental, and tenants to illustrate the absurd extravagance of God's love.  In other words, God is as ridiculously good as we are bad. Renters are generally considered more foolish than people who have a mortgage, but the real fools are people who take advantage of poor people in God's sight.  It's actually not a good thing to be at an extreme where you leverage someone's poverty and make them pay and pay and still have nothing.  Along with what could be an already unjust rent system, gouging gets added to it too, and is one of the reasons in our society why increasing wages won't solve all the problems.  That is all, I have said it before, but I will also add that I am not impressed with the musical called Rent, either. New York thinks everything is about themselves, and that once they choose the socialism to correct the bad capitalism, then the whole country has to go along with it.  But we won't, and people will pay for the way they have taxed their neighbors.

How bad is Biden

  I hate to be a backseat driver in a nuclear war, but I think it is cruel to make Ukraine think we are backing them militarily and then not do it at all.  And then these economic sanctions during a time of worldwide hardship… is perhaps that choice appealing because you also want to do it to half of your own country as soon as you can?  Is that what we are waiting for? For Trump to say more stupid stuff so you can say that Russia is colluding with all the Americans who know you’re a bad person?  And then you can justify shutting us out from commerce and facebook like you have been wanting to do for your whole “public service” career.  Uh, news for you, people have been doing that to us for thirty years. We’re used to it, we know it will get worse, and we know it’s because of our religion.  That’s why we didn’t vote for you, despite your so-called Catholicism, which is a weak disguise for your obsessive abortion hobby.

Or are we not defending Europe for another reason? Is there some ambivalence because it doesn't fit in well enough to the race war scripts you have been working on with the media? Like it could mess up your narrative of hating white people. Who knows what the reason is, but I continue to be shocked when I read the news and see the broken promise of a simple, swift and severe action. Sanctions is not that. Do you really think Russia will spare the whole world just to get Ukraine? Of course they won't. We should defend them in the beginning and be prepared for anything. If you don't feel up for that then you should not have tried to be the president.

What is Immanent

Well, this is a post for the mad blog, about something international which usually isn’t the topic.  But Russia is invading Ukraine, and Biden warned them and said we would do something “swift and severe” if they went through with it.  But we did not do that, and Biden waffled, and is now imposing sanctions.  Maybe he has something military planned, but to me, trying to ruin all the lives of the citizens during the pandemic instead of attacking the military is a weak and fearful thing to do.  Biden tried to explain that there could be a world war if he stood up to Russia but that is what Russia is using to get away with this invasion.  And it could be the rest of 

Europe, and we had our chance to stand up to Putin's in progress invasion.  But time has passed.  Biden did not sign up to be in a world war. He signed up to be in a movie about Kamala.  Tearing up societies is what democrats do instead of using force to make things right out of a secure place of justice. Just think what a win for peace it could have been if all the military bases destroyed each other. But instead, Biden is going to try to hurt their society like his political people have already hurt ours. And then there’s Trump in the background calling Putin a genius. I guess we will trust God with what happens and what we see happen, but there is another kind of trust where you trust God enough to do what you are supposed to.  And I don’t think that is what people have done enough in our government and country. Now we will see the fruit of universities teaching for thirty years that there is not really a right and wrong, except to protest the people who think there is, and who most offensively actually say so.

The Degeneration Generation

I don’t really think we need another mad blog post right now but I have something to say about my generation, which was hastily called Generation X as soon as Pearl Jam was popular.  Hardees commercials featured a guy talking like he was on drugs, and for the rest of our lives we would be referred to as slackers.  But really we are the 80s children.  And a lot of good stuff has happened because of us, including the surge of facebook and social media, which let a lot of people be creative after being shut out of the careers that fed us kelloggs and star wars when we were kids.  Some cool education and civil rights advancement has also happened with our generation as the core base.  I think millennials will live up to their name, too, but really this whole time period is obviously special. It could be that everyone alive now will get credit for starring in the turn of the millennium.  It hasn’t happened since the year one thousand, and before that was when Christ’s communities became famous. I am fine with being one of the people who had a nervous breakdown, and I hope everyone can clue into the work and support still needed for people with disabilities of all kinds. Some groups are already talking about the Olmstead act, supposedly to protect mentally ill people from being locked up. But really what is going to be needed is good housing and programs that care about all the epidemics, possibly inevitable from the problems that have shattered so many lives in these times. It is not too late to be caught helping people instead of faking activism just to be cool and tearing up the work that still can save more lives than have even lived yet.

tracing back the failure

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believe or die

You can’t have a vocation, but you can have a provocation.

Hi everyone, would you like to read these fun riddles for a mental health group I am in? 

A man pushes his car to a hotel and tells the owner he’s bankrupt. Why?

Answer: He’s playing Monopoly.

What is special about these words: job, polish, herb?

Answer: They are pronounced differently when the first letter is capitalized.

I live at a psychiatric complex in AOC’s district in the Bronx.  But that is not good enough. These people want money and power, and don’t think they won’t turn on you too.  Are my recent posts bad for my career?  Which of my five lost careers would that be?  I guess the cashiering career, but our neighborhood Stop and Shop is closing in April anyway. I could not have been more willing to work with people, and that turns out to be the problem all along.

white and wrong

 Well everyone, some of my normal blog that is supposed to be friendly has taken on some mad blog qualities. But I will still try to add to these blogs like normal.  This is just a short post on a deep subject, which has to do with racial repair and justice.  And I just want to say that people can do really well by just going pro-black, but not so well when it becomes anti-white.  There are geniuses all around who have studied these matters and lived lives with all of these things on their minds for years.  I am not really like that but have cared a lot for a long time and in recent years have been navigating social work school communities and life with immigrants and people of different races in New York City.  And there is a lot of strife.  I have a habit of believing almost anything anyone says, and giving people the benefit of the doubt to a fault.  And I will say finally that in fact it is a fault, and I have to call things like I see it, which is to say that some of the racism problems in New York include racism towards white people.  It is pretty bad here and that is all I will say.  I don’t feel like going into the other sub-issues and arguments, such as when people think that it is now white people’s “turn” to be oppressed.  I have really considered things like that but have found much more peace of mind and justice by intending to treat everyone as well as I can, making repairs for former losses by advancing justice and reparitions for black people and other groups, but maintaining an anti- racist view without targeting certain identities as enemies.  It just doesn’t need to be complicated in some ways, and I don’t support the abuse that has been happening in the name of fake justice. It doesn’t help anyone and actually damages causes for improving lives of many black people who haven’t had the same support as others. That’s all.  It is an interesting topic and possibly where the most important history and philosophy is to be studied these days.  But some of it isn’t as complicated as expensive schools want to suggest, and their offensive and obvious racism will be seen for what it is.

Pre exodus to other social media sites

Well, Facebook censored me overtly this week but it was inevitable after several years of being squelched deliberately by controlling algorithms. My posts could not be more innocent and if a blog like this isn’t good enough then I am not the one with the problem. I will not be begging Facebook to let me talk to my friends by posting videos of myself looking like a stupid desperate white person. facebook would be nothing without people like me and they will be nothing again without people like me. Oh, was I supposed to say “people who look like me?” eventually they will probably script everything using our identities anyway won’t they. So I don’t need to be there. What meta verse are you living in? No longer the same one as me.

fund-a-mental institution

 Here is another mad blog post, everyone, that seems like it could go on my theology blog.  But it is not a theology post. The problem seems theological but is actually a rude attitude problem.  And that is simply that some liberals seem determined to find a place for buddhism and even atheism within their Christian theology, but can’t reconcile basic fundamentalism with their own Christian faith.   I feel sorry for those people, and it is nothing but immature hatred.  People want to think they are better than everyone who just accepted what God told them with the simple faith prescribed in the Bible, so they go out of their way to welcome soul killing idols and principalities to their churches but can’t be nice to a Baptist on facebook. It is like that camel and gnat verse in the Bible, except having to do with thought instead of location. There is more to say, and I am sure God is doing something creative and using everyone’s offering in a good way. But somewhere there is some kind of fear or honesty problem if you have to disown half the church in order to relate with newcomers.  And perhaps are these people not really newcomers but very determined, educated persecutors, crafty and worldly enough to trick weak people into denying the “fundamentals.”

When They Decide To Charge

 Well, I just got notice that google email is going to require two step verification with my phone when I log into my account.  There was no opt in choice.  I will go ahead and say that I think they are preparing to shut out some email users for political reasons and shut down the country if they deem that necessary.  I think facebook has already leveraged their algorithms to persecute some people, and probably all of tech is looking forward to a demonstration of their power as they incapacitate innocent workers and citizens who simply didn’t buy into some of the politics and racism that has been gaining momentum in some but sorry, not all, communities.  That is just a hunch, and I don’t think I need to be the one to wonder out loud if there are more racial motivations than we know about.  Like who is behind the algorithms, and is it not just race but other countries ready to pounce.  It will all happen soon enough, and my contribution to life and people has already been rejected in full, so I expect the worldly power sharks to win their temporary battle. The media seems determined to do their part with their narrative assaults, but some of us know that eventually the truth wins. Recent reminders of death also are a clue that within years, and days, and moments for some people, we will be in a new place subject to other, better authority, and the lies and racist power plays will no longer be tolerated.  Some people will face the tragedy of their choice to not educate their children about religious truth and the salvation that evangelicals were persecuted for caring about, and while I do believe God’s mercy expands well beyond our earthly expectations, I also trust in full that the arrogant disrespect and deliberate oppression and greed from rich political networks will be destroyed as swiftly as people should have trusted God when people started sharing their faith more in the 90s.  Facebook was fun while it lasted, and it is hard to imagine life without email now, but many people are hurtling towards an eternity without love and hope, so let those of us who know to trust in someone other than the weak projections of half loyal politics be thankful for God and the faith that he has given us, which is sure to help us endure or accept the losses that people are planning for those who don’t worship human hypocrits.

Unlabeled Fake Sugar. That is where I draw the line.

I guess people don’t think I should be devastated by this, but I am. It is something I knew could be a problem but didn’t expect so soon, and that is for sucralose to show up in regular foods without a warning label on the front of the package. It has been happening for a while, but recently made its way into foods in a more deceptive way than usual.  I was sad to taste it in the Pillsbury corn bread rolls I baked, and sure enough, right there in tiny little writing in the ingredients, there it was.  And then what I most didn’t expect is to buy a little gourmet cheesecake in a fancy grocery store and recognize the taste when I had a small slice.  Then the next morning, still bothered by the bad experience, I see that there is not even any sugar listed and it is all sucralose. So now I have to check all the ingredients before buying any food. And I am going to waste the offensive cheesecake.  It will not go to my neighbors.  It is a tragedy and just another sign of the dishonesty and fake good deeds that have harmed our country.  People have their way for now, but probably when they try to take everyone’s guns will be when the charade comes to an end and the good people move on from all the harassing destructive activism against all of us, every day, for many years about everything we do and have ever done. We are tired of y'all's self righteous hypocrisy, which is unironically just like the fake sugar that will not go undetected and undespised.

A nice day for a mad blog post

 The reason liberals don't have guns is because they know they're wrong.  They also would rather just make people feel bad than to have actual justice. Currently some social work people are forcing me to go through gay rites of passage, or should I say "gay rights of passage," to get through my gender problem. No one in any community will accept any work or participation from me until I start a stonewall riot or prove I'm Ellen Degeneres. I literally will have to write a sit-com about a bookstore even though I actually worked in a bookstore for twelve years and then I need to lose the sitcom in order to be treated with any amount of dignity from any group or organization here in New York.  Funnily, I think this includes the evangelical churches in the South, as well, who supposedly reject gay choices in general. But I know from my mom's lifelong control of me and her own resulting heartbreak, that everyone secretly wants gay people to be gay.  For the people who pretend not to believe in it, it helps them have people to appropriate, to include despite themselves, or cut off as their profession of faith that secular society outlawed a long time ago in their own disguised ways. But I have consistently been myself and I am a loving person and good at love, even though people judge any kind of monk as being some kind of secret abuser dispatched from the Catholic church. Well the Catholic church was a convenient decoy to blame for what is absolute mass societal sexual abuse which has left almost no one unoffended or unharmed in our disgusting culture that was ruined by too much pornography a long time ago.   This abuse is not totally unrelated to all the closet politics, no matter what anyone says, or no matter how much people try to make having AIDS or good fashion the highest virtue. Some of us chose the discipline of waiting until it was safe to have a person, which for me turns out to either be never, or whenever the social work people who have my life in their hands can confirm that I act out every stage of the "coming out" process required by their gay rights cotillion.  Gay scrogging is the religion of New York, and people couldn't help but follow their pride all the way to total self worship where anyone who wants to contribute to any part of society has to first develop a taste for San Francisco bath houses and naked drag queens on parade floats.  I guess for women it is different, but I would not know, because I have done what I am supposed to, only for people to demand that I throw it all away as part of their continued political campaigns, not to save confused middle schoolers, but to try to keep milking the 80s for their own lost virtue that will probably never be found. So I guess the finale to all these years of suffering is that everyone already knows what is true.  The evangelicals know that gay is okay, and they always have, and the fagtards know that they should have followed Jesus Christ.  Everything else was just a total waste of time except for people to get some air-time with the power-hungry media, who thankfully will probably not be around any more once we're all in heaven.

20 years of liberal jihad

Today is Sept 11 and no one has forgotten and we haven’t forgotten the 20 years of media harassment that followed. People want the insurrection to be a matching bookend to the glory and heroism of that day but it simply isn’t and instead was a mess and a sham and the culmination of deliberate division that has ruined our country.

 

Return of the Mad Blog

 Well everyone, I am restarting my blog after a break to manage behavior problems. So I am back to my normal topics instead of complaining about people being mean to me personally for political reasons.  So today I have two quick topics: first, just to say that I think Apple computers has made its charging ports wear out faster as a power play and as a way to make more money from replacement devices.  It could not be more obvious and my first iPhone lasted four times as long as any of my subsequent replacements.  Then the second issue is that some of the drug stores lock up the brand name over the counter medicine and then drag their feet for customer service so people end up buying the store brand. That is some nasty cheating and the fact that we have no government to intervene with anything like that in our society is a tragedy and a dangerous reality that probably signals the end of safe living for most of us. But this isn't a post about terrorism, domestic or otherwise, and we certainly don't need to be attacked by the Taliban for our own country to be ruined. We already have the New York Times for that. Anyway I guess there is going to be a war in the US soon. People can call it a civil war but I think there will be a lot of "immigrants" helping on one side, won't there be. That is enough for now. This blog got ignored as part of the silence people pretended to complain about. The newsflash that you won't have access to is that a lot of you aren't going to heaven. Bye! I am not Lot's wife. I won't miss anyone.

My 2 cents on government spending

 A post today is simple which is that I agree it is a good time for reparitions. People could think that the economic losses should cause people to wait, but it is all the more reason and all the more appropriate for people to give from their poverty when they can.  That is what black people were forced to do for generations, to find resources from nowhere and live anyway without basic needs. So it is just the right priority during Covid recovery. We should tax ourselves voluntarily and as a country and as local communities.  Many people are already doing the work. I expect to do most of my part during purgatory and think it will be good. I do not plan to pay back the suffering as a punishment but instead will take Christ's offer of all you can eat forgiveness while I learn to cook all you can eat restaurant food. I am also going to live at the mall for a while and run a surprise store with things that can only be sold in purgatory. That is all for today and now I will try to work on imaginary mice novels. I owe a 40 dollar pledge to holocaust survivors but will probably still also buy cupcakes for myself on credit.

Using Your Noodle

 Well everyone, the secret messages seem to be saying to do a post about racism against Asians and I will gladly do that because I think it is a neglected topic.  But I think at this point the main thing I will say is just to point out a simple fact about Covid, which many people, including the stale cheeto, wanted to blame China for. Covid is SARS, and if anyone recalls, SARS has been happening for about fifteen years.  Maybe a little more, and we all used to see people with their masks on in other countries on TV.  I think I remember seeing mostly Japanese people with masks.  That was a long time ago.  So I would say that is a virus that has been contained with extreme success and consideration. And I personally am grateful to face the virus with luxuries of Zoom and facebook and occasional instacart, and to have already gone through some good years where the economy was not shut down and I was able to travel for school.  As obvious as God's care is in that, I will not hesitate to also show some gratitude to all the people in other countries who did the opposite of the biological warfare they were accused of.  And I find it even ruder that people actually refused to discuss biological warfare anyway and went straight for the racism.  Calling it "China virus" without deploying any armies or protection in a war. So it wasn't about biological warfare anyway and if it was, people were too cowardly to discuss it. How terrible, and war is actually something that should be legitimately prepared for anyway with extreme care for our diverse population where anyone could seem like an enemy under some conditions.  And I go further with it than most and disagree with anyone who thinks that some privileged people somehow maintain their prosperity and safety with no attack. That view disgusts me and I don't see how anyone won't acknowledge the erosion and cultural assaults that are part of everyone's lives as we try to deal with overwhelming healthcare burdens, shark tech power hungry control freaks, unavoidable inappropriate media being force fed to everyone's kids, rates of autism with no residential or care provisions anywhere in sight despite multiple multiple billionaires, a food supply that can't be trusted and is replaced or even destroyed with no replacement by greedy copycats who proudly hawk their aggressive harvest from white flight to Portland and Seattle which continues to post a disgusting symbolic green logo over the only thing that helped us get through any of it besides our own supernatural strength that some people didn't have because the expensive schools found it to seem more intellectual to teach everyone that nothing's true. Who do people want to be the victims? Who do people want to be the good guys? Sometimes solutions are more obvious than people realize, and the route to being a good person is surprisingly instant if that was what people really wanted.

intellectual property law frontiers

 Ok everyone I want to introduce a new copyright concept called "common law public domain," where images might not be officially copyright free but they should be.  That is how I drew this aquarium picture: 

I am sorry I wasted the syrup that I bought from the Amish on Amazon.

Ok everyone I know that I have suggested solutions before that have to do with varying funds so that opposing political parties could pay for only what they believe in with clear consciences.  But I thought of an idea this morning rather suddenly that I think could be a more obvious long overdue solution to all of it.  And what I think could solve everything is if America just sent the whole bill for abortion costs directly to the Amish. They could absorb the disrespect intended for all religious people, much like Christ on the cross. It would be a powerful witness of God's forgiveness, while also satiating the murderous forces who try to abuse all of us in more sneaky ways.  We could defeat them by just skipping to the ending, acknowledging the real goals, and concentrating all the meaning in a simplified form. And it is simple: people who care about doing what they are supposed to should take the punishment for everyone else. I mean just say it. There is no need for thousand page insurance laws and corrupt government gridlocks to disguise it all.  People have not been able to convince anyone that babies are innocent or not innocent. But we know the Amish are, so let's get them involved a little more.

now things can go back to normal

Finally, some "peace" and calm again.  No more yucky photos of that bad person on the news every day and the headlines that make us feel like racism is going to win if we try to keep a job and pay our bills. Suddenly things seem so sane again, and why is that? Is it because a mad man is not in charge and the so called fanatics he represents, or because the people tearing up our country got their way and are now allowed to tear it up from above and not below?  Fascism or socialism, what a great choice for a country that used to try for liberty and justice. I actually do feel some relief and am especially happy about Kamala probably being a good leader, but I also don't plan to pretend I don't see a dynamic where people haven't caused on purpose half the strife they pretend to save everyone from.  It's funnily not even just metaphorically similar to criminal behavior where someone has an actual gun to your head and promises not to hurt you if you just hand over the cash. Except it's more like, "we promise not to hurt you any more," which means something bad has already happened. Well that is interestingly similar to their narrative, hard to escape, but possible if you are willing to lose your career or participation in main social venues. I myself think there is a conspiracy, and knew not to vote for Trump, but also can tell when I am watching a skit set up for some entertainment purpose where people weren't satisfied with the corruption of hollywood and want to turn our whole reality into a nasty violent movie.  I ended up with a pretty good role as a food volunteer, more exciting than just being an "extra," but sadly automatically still a racist villain because my ancestors believed in Jesus Christ. My life also comes with a debt that matches what other people got as their salary, but of course it is just a blessing to participate at all. Are the Oscars still a source of honor? To me it would seem by now that any of the winners would have to walk across the stage hiding their face in shame, but maybe that turns out to be part of the movie now too. A very clever ironic twist, and possibly a good sign that everyone will eventually get exactly what they vote for.

Channeling Self Harm

Well everyone, I hope you all are having a good night. I need to take my psychiatric medicine and try not to have another day where I scream at everyone in my neighborhood to stop torturing me. I have made good progress in life goals, which used to involve writing and publishing, but then just writing, and now just experiencing the humiliation of Christ and God's jealousy and rage from the Old Testament. There is oddly one more thing that I have figured out, which is a related goal to stay alive until the very end and not commit suicide.  That is something I did not notice about Christ on the cross, not automatically as a suicide theme but that he was alive while dying in an unusual way.  So I will try to do the same. Abandoning my more absurd and grandiose ambitions to not be abused by my entire society seems like a good plan for now and definitely a type of spiritual progress.  It still might be a culminating problem, though, for people who will be found hitting themselves in the corner when my books are finally read in heaven.  Probably already there are already creatures and people in other realms reading about everything we do here and who possibly have hologram machines that create physical replications of us that they can slap when anyone does something stupid. It could also be God's plan for me to fail in many life layers at a time, because he knew I was going to tell evangelicals that their communion might as well be fetal blood after their disregard for people's health care needs, and that I would also tell the democrats that their fetal blood might as well be fetal blood. Speaking of blood, I am thinking about having my gallbladder surgery without the pain medication or anesthesia, just as practice for the war. 

 

²³ And you, Capernaum, will you be lifted to the heavens? No, you will go down to Hades. For if the miracles that were performed in you had been performed in Sodom, it would have remained to this day. ²⁴ But I tell you that it will be more bearable for Sodom on the day of judgment than for you.”

Violence is Violence

Well that was quite an orange fire that raged for four years, put out by a mostly friendly blue ocean wave, but I think that as the steam hisses and people trudge through the charred wasteland to determine what can be salvaged, something that will turn out to be much less flammable than expected is evangelical Christianity. During recent days, some people in surprise occurrences of political integration have started testing christian claims of evangelical identity, looking for whether people actually share their faith or just found themselves as part of a popular and maybe comfortable social club that seemed immune to some of the suffering felt by oppressed and alienated groups. But that is where I and others will probably have to draw certain lines with how patient to be. Surprising to some, these lines may not be the bad lines of gerry mandering in voting districts, pipelines through indigenous territory, or even Wal-Mart lines that were always too long on purpose. But they will be confrontational and supernaturally unchallengeable boundaries where our persecutors are faced with our unanimous outrage at their own hypocrisy of silencing us and then calling us silent. People love the MLK quote about the appalling silence of good people, a little too much, in fact, and not coincidentally enjoy even more the sport of comparing faithful Christian patience to the horrific silence of the Holocaust, famously brought to attention by Elie Weisel and others since then. People who question complicity in these matters usually have the best of intentions, which is to re-enlist the goodness of those they think they should have already been able to count on for defense against evil assaults on entire populations. But it is their own slouching when people demand the very moral compromises at the root of the problems themselves from people who do plenty of what they are supposed to and know it. What do people say they wanted from us. The criticism was of a lack of campaigning. And yet we were already muted for that very reason: the fact that we actually believed that people needed to know something and went to the trouble of being associated in any way with the message. So either people really believe we are wrong, and are about to be surprised sooner than anyone realizes when God comes through for us all, or there could be a second category of people who were secretly us and would not admit it. And in that case, I will say to those people this new famous quote: "when you point a finger, you have three more pointing back at you, plus my two middle fingers now too."

idea for facebook

 ok everyone i have an idea for facebook which is what if there was an announcement feature where people could post to most of their friends without depending on likes for more people to see some posts. This would help I think maintain some true friend factors instead of making the mix with media and ads turn all social communication into market driven systems that reward certain content instead of any or all actual things people want to share. It wouldn't have to be all of it, like old facebook, but it could be a feature rolled out as a schedule of days or a random lottery stock or a set amount based on friends or followers, or a ratio according to posts. That is an idea that I think could help restore some of facebook's old appeal that has been lost. It is definitely a challenge, especially with some facebookers using it for very competitive purposes, but there probably is a way to help most everyone benefit from it somehow and preserve the relationships that have actually lost a lot of the "organic" nature even when the posts aren't ads that can go to people's friends more easily than their own posts. I say this as someone who has run ads and I think obviously facebook is good for commerce. But there is a way that people are helping themselves to people's social lives not just without any compensation offered but at the expense of people not even having full access to their own friends when they want to communicate in the way that was set up when most people started using facebook and then depending on it almost as a utility. I think it could still work on the basis of consideration and not necessarily profit contracts.

One more thought is that if the sharing based on likes can be based on formulas and algorithms then it would not be that different to distribute "coupons" or "announcement quotas" enabling "all access friend shares" based on some other combination of factors that reasonable people would be likely to accept if it really corresponded to their facebook habits.

Shark Attack

 Well everyone, I got a notice today from Barnes and Noble saying that their customers’ info had been compromised, and everyone’s purchase and transaction records have been leaked. I always had thought that was just a risk with the membership program but apparently Barnes and Noble thinks it is their business to keep track of everything that people buy but not be responsible if it is made public. My purchase history with them is pretty innocent, but I think that this is a reminder of how they leverage power with their cashiers and to try to stay in charge of community decency standards wherever their stores are.  I think they are able to achieve a blackmail effect on their employees if anyone ever decides to stand up against them for any reason. They might think they can dirty all of our personal records, but their brand is the dirt, and even being an employee or a customer has an effect of instant confession at worst, and possibly an automatic exposure of their community assault strategy at even more worst. So I could say I am worried about people coming after me because of my name on receipts, but all that will come to light is how nice some of their employees and customers were, and how patient, to then be treated with nothing less than absolute sexual abuse meant to ruin our lives.

Trending

 Well everyone, I am not going to make the most of this post, but I should go ahead and at least mention the topic.  At volunteer work a couple of years ago, I was sorting coats at a coat drive and made a comment about how I always thought it was messed up how some people would just announce what colors would be cool for that season, like when people say, red and gold is what is going to be popular this year, or “it is time for everyone to eat avocado toast.” I have just always thought, who do those people think they are?  But marketing is good sometimes, too, and when I said it this lady meanly said, “that is their job.”  And it was like she knew I was on disability at the time, and she was implying that at least those people are not lazy bums riding the system like me.  Well I must say that is a pretty nasty insult, and the idea behind it is that maybe because I have an illness or injury that keeps me from being able to work for a while, then I am automatically a worse person than anyone making any money at all, whether they are a contact tracer or a TSA person, or maybe even a prostitute, which to me isn't necessarily as bad as just an ordinary bad boss of some kind. But anyway, it is like I am automatically a tax collector by being on ssdi...okay… I see.. it is from taxes.  I am a tax collector.  Okay I get it everyone, thanks a lot for the great Sunday school lesson.  To me that elevates you all to the highest of clergy even if you are one of the marketing people choosing what colors for people to like or deciding that it is time for society to have tax funded abortions and video ads in the subway depicting pre-teens in their underwear.

The Wages of Unfair Wages

Well everyone, in one of my other writings I said something that I think made it sound like I don’t understand something that I actually do have a concept of, and it has to do with what is the opposite of slavery.  And I just want to say in this quick blog post that a lot of education about slavery always compares it to freedom, like freedom is the main thing to be gained instead.  But I want to say that I think wages might be the main thing, or an additional thing, and that some kinds of freedom come from having correct wages.  We have problems like this now in our country, and people think it is okay, because they see freedom as the main thing in question, which ends up focusing more on the freedom to make people work without paying them enough.  But wages might be the main thing, and the work itself is also a thing.  Abolitionists who made slavery go away a long time ago didn’t always offer other work opportunities, so a lot of poverty and suffering continued from American slavery while many people congratulated themselves and have felt innocent of certain atrocities. But work, wages, and freedom are all part of the justice picture, and people should consider this when they try to solve problems or assess how dependent they have become on other people’s mistreatment. It’s a lot to manage, and it is part of the reason why people should give all their effort to be a good person and do what is right.  And not to make everything theological, but a related topic would have to do with something like tithing ten percent and thinking that excuses you from offering your whole life to the service of God and others. A lot of people will find that to give an honest ten percent, you kind of do have to give your whole life. And so many people have thought all of that is not worth their time. But probably almost everyone would be surprised at how much the other problems of percentages can be traced back to it.

Fighting the System When You Are The System

This topic is very belated, but everyone knows what I am talking about. I thought of a name for it, which I would say is “policy-mongering.” It is when the lawmakers fight each other through the legislation process.  And I think that it has been so much a problem that people should do what they always should have done and make it be against the rules.  Not necessarily a crime, but just against the rules so you lose your job as a senator if you can’t work in a straightforward process instead of using every aspect of the congressional system to fight “the other side” as a representative.  The fact is, in that context, there is not supposed to be another side to that extreme, even with all the history of things like filibustering.  Well filibustering also was a waste of time, and disrespectful, and people should not keep their jobs if they can’t see their work as a job instead of a battle. There is something cowardly about blocking the other politicians at every step of government if what they really want is a war, though that doesn’t necessarily mean that duels are the answer. Both sides have done it consistently, which almost makes it a treaty or agreement of some sort, and that is actually part of the problem.  That is how it becomes a charade and sham while a whole country waits for justice. The right solutions would benefit everyone, and though the divided country and people who are not at peace with each other makes government a difficult challenge that is all too easy for someone like me to sit back and criticize, it is too much of a lie for people to say they are there to govern when what they are really doing is a much lower level role as a soldier taking orders from voters they are try to please in order to keep salaries and insurance that so suspiciously don’t match the wages of the people who can no longer afford places to live.

When to Sort Things Out

People seem pretty mad about riots and looting that have happened in recent months, but that is where I see some of the people who are actually honestly fighting problems instead of doing weird power-play psychological lashes like what a lot of politicians, media, and other bad people do. It kind of matches how people always get in trouble for assault but other life-ruining strategies that happen all the time in this country are often tolerated and sometimes even legal.  But I want to say that as people report on the Breonna Taylor murder, it seems that not everyone thinks it is important that there actually was a drug bust, and that probably her good life and herself as a good person had been turned into kind of a human shield by drug traffickers.  I think there is a range of how bad drug dealers can be, but this sounded like pretty serious drug trade to me, and it continues to confuse me that people so much want to build a case against all cops but ignore the very bad abuse of millions of people, especially young people, from trafficking and drug attacks. A lot of it creates bad situations like what happened to Breonna Taylor, and I don’t know for how much longer cops and soldiers need to be sifting through the complications of innocent people being mixed in before it just becomes a war. And if it does, then people who decided to flood the jails as part of that effort will have to face the consequences of their decision.  For a lot of communities, it still seems worth the effort to try to intervene in trafficking, especially because of the international threats and the child abuse involved. And I can’t say that I am not someone who thinks it does damage people’s credibility when they want to talk about mass incarceration without acknowledging mass crime. I pretty consistently side with the black people and see a lot of racism, and I side with the poor and see abuse and lack of justice, but when I read the news, I see lies. You don’t know how bad you have to be to lose my support, and many people have.  I am not scared to become Amish, to go off the grid, and just wait until judgement day when God tosses millions into the yawning chasm of fire that is probably already glowing a little brighter from recent days.